Yes, the day of reckoning is approaching and I am worrying about going out on saturday for a few drinks. I keep thinking that something is going to go wrong even though it won't because I actually have some good friends now. I need to just chill out. I always get really worked up like this before an occasion and majority of the time everything works out anyway...
I can't believe I'm going to be 21... I know I already said that last time but it's all pretty wierd. I've been having some pretty wierd mixed up dreams lately where People and locations in Leeds and Durham are all mixed up together...
Though I am looking forward to my birthday I will be relieved when it's over and things have gone ok. I might stop having wierd dreams then. I really should start my dissertation (I should have started it at the beginning of August!) but I am struggling to get started and motivated, that's the problem with long summers, your brain goes to sleep...

I went for a nice walk around North West Leeds last night and I got to the top of a hill and looked down and I could see all of the beautiful lights below and I felt so at home... Everything just felt right...
Anyway, I really need to just relax and stop worrying about everything before I drive myself mad...