I wanted to write a load of stuff to sort my head out because it's nearly Christmas day and I'm feeling pretty low. I have no friends at home because of the way things worked out in school and college (most of the people I was friends with/ tried to be friends with were arseholes or just indifferent to me). So I have no social life. I also really miss Leeds- can't wait to go back.My parents don't love each other and my brother is not exactly having a great life.
I have no real life in Durham. Also it is approaching Christmas day and my grandma is dead and it won't be the same without her and my Grandad will be close to tears all day. I hate beeing at home it just makes me feel depressed and none of the kids that live round here like me so I don't like going out in case people shout abuse at me when I'm walking through the park or whatever. I am having such a moan and I feel like a bit of a wuss saying I don't like going out.
I hate being in Durham- it makes me feel low as hell and Christmas approaching doesn't help. I am trying to console myself with the fact that a lot of people feel like this at christmas. I also have a lot of people who care about me and respect me in Leeds and I don't have to stay here long.